just feel like i have to update my blog

Yea. Without any reason, just the feeling came across me all of sudden. And i am back to batu pahat my warm and sweet home! Yeay! 3 continuous lecture classes in the same lecture hall was torturing. We're all so cold and so numb sitting there without exercise, I mean, like just moving our limbs. It definitely didn't feel good. But its great to have outing with classmates after class! Awwww~ The very first time we got our photostated notes for econs, ignoring the first chapter which I don't really remember whether lecturer went through it or not. Uhm, can you just imagine that the class just ends at 11am, for the whole day? It's awesome man! It's.. once in a blue moon lah for my course. Some of my housemates they can just have NO class at all for say any one of the weekdays, I really jealous them sometimes. Btw, what I want to say is, I hang out with my classmates. Haha, seriously out of topic. XP Erm, we went to KL Festival City and had Sakae Sushi for lunch. I ordered tempura green tea soba noodles. It tasted so normal and the noodles is little. :( But it's enough for me though. I actually got quite full after finished it as it is a soup noodles (the soup makes me full). When we're about to finish our mean, Audrey came. It's about 12.30pm already so we quickly paid and still, slowly walked towards the MBO cinema. I went in and found that the movie was started, and the screen is really BIG. I sit at the seat which is considered in the middle. The movie is nicer than I thought it would be, and I prefer Shawn to Joshua. Hehe. For me, Joshua looks a bit like gangster (because of the colour of his hair? maybe his expression too.. but it might be that he is so good in acting and suitable for the movie). Audrey sent GuoZhang and me to Wangsa Maju LRT station and she had second round gathering at PuiTeng's house with Rachel, Queenie and other classmates. Puiteng's grandmom is cooking laksa! What a waste that i couldn't join them. Nvm I'll have the chance afterwards!

So, I am now going to bed. Packed of outings tmr. <3
9am to have breakfast at old bus station with elf.
- She wants to bring me for toasted bread and three colours milk tea.
9.30am dace practise at FoGuangYuan (佛光缘)
- Not that kind of hot dance or modern pop dancing, it's a flash mob dance combining many pop songs. Do come if you're interested! Can ask me for details. =] I have shared the event on facebook and invited many friends anyway.
2pm teatime (lunch maybe?) at juz waffle with ahgan 13 and elf
- To make up for last time 5 minutes appearance on her bday celebration. And it has been a long time that I nvr meet up with 13 edi.
3.30pm going to somewhere with somebody that for months I haven't actually sit down properly and chat with
5.30pm rest at house I think. Haha. The events above have had all the qualities to make me tired. And some time in everyday we must do something meaningful to our life isn't it? Well I don't actually.. It's always easier said than done.



Gonna end this post with my famous style of broken English:

Good-the-night world! See ya :)

最後的掙扎

努力了三个小时，终于生出一篇像样的公函。
没办法，几千块钱就悬于这一封信了。
感谢保进哥哥，陪我指导我帮忙我三个小时。
申请成功的话不知道要怎么感激他><
我的奖学金啊，我离你，so near yet so far。
又来到这个状况 一线之差
说真的，几千块学费，不是我这么无能的人赚得来的。


话说，我的好哥哥，完全的落井下石雪上加霜。
我知道都是我自作自受，因果报应要自己承担。
可是需要做到这样绝吗？
那天叫你你还说：“不要叫我看数学题。”
天啊，我只是要跟你说话罢了啦！
功课都不要教我，然后现在只会责备我骂我。
是怎样？
教训人就会。亡羊补牢
被吃掉的羊都回不来了
马后炮
事后诸葛
有什么用？
送彼此一句：
早知如此，何必当初？


爸爸叻？
每次什么都讲我没有讲
我提早讲了
你有记得咩？
所以我学聪明了就临时临急才讲咯
你还有 更夸张的
连我考什么试 几时考
甚至连我读什么科目
都不知道
明明就是你熟悉的领域
女儿又只有一个
真的有那么难记得吗？
记不记得有一次星期五我回家了
星期六你问我隔天几点上吉隆坡？
那时候 我明明放假一个礼拜
我期待了那么久的假期 一家团聚
你完全没有知觉
然后 你很惊喜，我很想哭


妈妈也是，每天只会叫我读书。
每晚都是九点半等到要睡时十一二点才要打来
然后都是你说了两三句就匆匆忙忙要挂电话。
然后呢？
我累积了一大篇的演讲稿和一堆让你发挥的时事话题
生活趣事也好，课业关系也好
一句都没有讲到
难得有机会讲了，妳又没有反应
我知道我很需要人督促
可是你那种态度 是怎样？
一天不读书会死掉？
我告诉你
每天读书才会死人
尤其是我这种超懒惰超不爱读书的人
会被你们逼疯
一开始还会有警戒作用的，叫我去读书的话
久了只会觉得 就是这句话
剥夺我所有和妳聊天还有分享事情的机会
听到都显，显到很pekcek
这种frustrated的情绪不知不觉一天一点在累积
昨天终于爆发了。
导火线很长，燃点却一触即发
到现在还不可收拾
连电话都没有mood跟妳講了
现在complain的一大段
就是最好的证明
我才发觉，很久了。
你没有好好关心我，很久了。
可是我也知道了。我长大了。
你就忙你的吧，高兴就好
我会和你分享你的喜悦，让你的快乐加倍
我的人生？哈哈，姑且看我怎么堕落下去吧
我是最不记仇 最健忘 最善良的人
是吧？现在 不是也要是了。

我现在不知道怎么办
自己闯的祸 却不敢面对 不会收拾
没有脸回家了不好意思打电话给你们了
现在最好维持现状
在这个没有认识我的人的地方
才没有被拆穿的恐惧
才会有豁出去的勇气


又来了 每次遇到麻烦 就只会逃避
这个坏习惯 几时才可以丢掉？
长大了要学会解决事情
尤其是自己的问题 没人会帮你了
学会对自己 对别人 负责任
知道吗？加油 帮自己打气！



是的


一个人 真的很容易胡思乱想






幼稚的小孩· 发泄· 为赋新词强说愁

飞镖之午

在学校等巴士回家。一群同学们热情的与我打招呼。miko邀我join他们吃午餐，我正有此意，便欣然答应了。上了车大伙儿才决定要到GK的Houston吃，是miko提议的，说是雯妮给予评价蛮好的餐厅。老实说，我还真不知道GK有家餐厅叫Houston。来到这里，找到了餐厅，才发现哪里有Houston？原来是间位处二楼的gaston house cafe。对了，这间 house cafe 我倒是经常经过，但从没在那里消费。GZ和瀚怡都叫了fish and chips，两人还叫了蓝色的饮料～松毅耀明伟良miko应该是和我一样都叫套餐。我叫了蘑菇酱猪扒意大利面，随着套餐的是西洋菜汤和绿茶。食物嘛，普普通通，没什么特色。倒是那里的飞镖和靶子，让大家玩得不亦乐乎，好不过瘾。啊，对了，那里的招待员姐姐，人漂漂亮亮的，可是好凶好可怕，而且餐厅还要脱鞋入内。想来大家心照不宣地都不会光临第二次了吧！最后感谢瀚怡送我回家，还有庆幸有大家陪伴，让我拥有美好的午餐时光 =]

那个人

每个人心里，都住着一个很特别的人吧。
也许单方，也许双向，总有一种羁绊。
那个人，新同学不会认识，旧朋友不再提起。
感觉不再强烈，却淡淡的，永远刻在心中。
让人回味无穷，缅怀一生。



有遗憾，才有续梦的空间，才最美。